Three long months I’ve been gone. I know, I missed you all too. I just needed some time to heal. Hurt that have been hidden so long can do that to a person. But as always, I want to be transparent. Enjoy.
All I want is to be perfect for you.
But I just cant seem to reach your expectations.
What is wrong with me?
Am I too loud?
What am I?
I will do anything out of love and you abuse that knowledge.
I feel selfish sometimes thinking about me.
How I feel.
My own voice.
It has to be all about you.
I’m scared to speak somedays.
Afraid of what I might say…
Will I hurt you again?
My mind is going around in circles trying to be perfect for you.
I can never be good enough,
The emotional abuse doesn’t matter. The mental abuse is an imagination.
All because you would do the same for me.
Behind this smile, my soul is in pieces.